.... instead of talking to myself and freaking out about the dark...>_>

XDD I decided to write a journal

... god alot of my friends are pressuring me to go to prom this year during highschool because I'm a senoir and the usual talk... Q.Q is it really a bad thing I really don't want to go... I'm not willing to spend 200 dollars on a ticket >_> then over 100 on a dressy thing (dresses just aren't me...or shorts....or skirts....or frilly things... DX I know shocker XDDD)

I don't like when my friends pressure me like that... ah work bombed today...
it's not fun when you have to do everything because your co-worker decides to bring her friend in and talk and stuff... D<; you just dont cuss around 4 year olds.. and play that hard core rap junk around them omg... I dunno it's just really frustrating... at least I'm trying my hardest right?

on a happy note today, my parents and I went to go check up on my fathers health, and the nurses in the room and the doctor were super confused about my race ( I'm supermixed.... just call me the world atlas thats missing a few pages...yeah special), but they said I was pretty... usually I brush it off and don't like hearing it but.. it made me feel nice for once. Sometimes I think I look like D<; something someone scraped off the side of the road...... >_> *feels chris's powerful stare of gonna kick your butt for saying that tahni*

but I feel kinda happy someone said something like that to me. um band camp.... oo I don't want to go on friday but...what you gotta do you have to do it, I don't want to drag my bassoon out of the house so I'm prolly just gonna take my bell and flute music stuff down to the school.

I love band and all my friends at school, but at the same time I wish... I could leave faster, I don't like how alot of my friends treat me sometimes.. just like I'm an object. but I can't tell people that, it'll hurt their feelings. but it'd be nice if people considered my feelings too...


but thats why I'm here on the internet , all you guys where-ever you are in the world, you when I first joined made me feel like I had friends .. not people who just used me, so thank you everyone, thank you very much♥